If you know me well at all, you know that I love Jen Hatmaker. Ideas from her books Ms. Understood and Interrupted have revolutionized my world (and actually played a role in our decision to adopt). I came across this video today, and I totally think I’m going to do this! As I’ve become burdened about the orphan crisis around the world over the past year or so, I’ve become extremely aware of how blessed we are here in America. By nature I don’t like clutter and excess around our house. I enjoy living more simply. I know this experiment will show me how I can scale down even more – and be a blessing to others at the same time. I’ll keep you posted . . .
As far as adoption stuff goes, there’s really no getting around it – I’m just completely sad about it. I don’t expect many people to understand this, but I live everyday feeling as if something’s missing. My heart is so connected to Ethiopia and our child(ren) there that I find myself feeling sad often. Sad that we’re stuck, sad that they’re not here yet. It’s so strange to feel that way about someone who is so completely unknown at this point. But nevertheless, it’s the way I feel. So if you see me and I look a little lost and like I’m daydreaming, I probably am. I don’t know how else to explain it. I have purposely tried to avoid blogging about it much because it’s too hard to explain, and I feel like it probably doesn’t make sense to most people. My heart is just longing like never before for our family to be complete, to have a little one – or two – to hold and mother. I’m trying to wait well, but it’s hard. I’m thankful that God knows and loves my kids so much more than I do, that He knows who they are and where they are. I have to choose everyday to trust and rest in that . . .
